Friday, March 24, 2017

Rebuilding

Wall at 9/11 construction site, January 2005


Did You See the Sky


Did you see the sky through me
tonight, carbon blues and clouds like ropes
of wool behind a fringe of branches,
great combs of black stilling in their sap,
stiffening with winter. I like to imagine
love can pull your essence like red thread
through the cold needle of my life now
without you. I was just driving home
from the grocery store and looking up
over the roofs, I remembered once when
I was overthrowing my thoughts
for doubts you said, I know how to love you
because I hitchhiked, and it was never the same sky twice
.
Now, I hear you say, this music is like wind
moving through itself to wind, intricate
as the chimes of light splintering into
everything while glowing more whole.
It is nothing like those dusty chords
on your radio, each an ego
of forced air, heavy with the smells
of onions, mushrooms, sage and rain.
Drink it in, you say, those corded clouds
and throaty vocals. You will miss all this
when you become the changing.

 ~ Rachel Jamison Webster (©2015)


Thursday, March 23, 2017

This song's for anybody

At My Best — Machine Gun Kelly, feat. Hailee Steinfeld
Original photo by Dianne de Mott

I wrote this song as a message for help
On behalf of anybody finding theyself
I wrote this letter to numb your pain
'Cause everyday I wake up I'm feeling the same
I got issues just like you got issues
I been hurt I seen the scar tissue
If I show you would you run away
Do I gotta hide 'em for you to wanna stay
Do I even need you, should I leave you
Do I gotta be you, just to please you
Do I say I'm all good, when I bleed you

Through my heart, quit tearing mine apart

I shout, I swear, I get angry, I get scared
I fall, I break, I mess up, I make mistakes
But if you can't take me at my worst
You don't deserve me at my best

Got to keep it going, got to keep my head up, uh
Got to keep it going, got to keep my head up, uh
Got to keep it going, got to keep my head up 'cause life is about
Ah, check this out

Life is about making mistakes
It's also about trying to be great
Do not let failure scare you away
I know you fed up, you fall, get up
It's all in us, I can speak about 'cause I did it (true)
Ladies and gentlemen, here's the exhibit
It's my life, look a little closer you could see the highlight
Gold ain't always golden but I told 'em
Look at all the years I've been waiting for a moment
Shed a lot of tears just to smile in the morning
Tell me, could you love me, tell me could you love me
Tell me, could you love me if I told you why

I shout, I swear, I get angry, I get scared
I fall, I break, I mess up, I make mistakes
But if you can't take me at my worst
You don't deserve me at my best

This song's for anybody, yeah
Who feels like I did
Never the cool kid
This song's for anybody
Who fought their way through
Always remain true
This song's for anybody
The ones who trying to get it
The ones who dreaming and live it
This song's for anybody
This song, this song, this song, this song, this song, this song

I shout, I swear, I get angry, I get scared
I fall, I break, I mess up, I make mistakes
But if you can't take me at my worst
You don't deserve me at my best

Got to keep it going, got to keep my head up, uh
Got to keep it going, got to keep my head up, uh
Got to keep it going, got to keep my head up 'cause life is about





Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Not on the evening news



He was not badly disfigured, compared to some,
But even a little stream of blood where death is
Will whimper across a forest floor,
Run through that whole forest shouting.

 ~ William Meredith, excerpt from "Notes for an Elegy" (1944)


Graffitti, Pittsfield MA (2008) 


Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Through the way where hope is guiding...

Jesu, joy of man’s desiring,
Holy wisdom, love most bright;
Drawn by Thee, our souls aspiring
Soar to uncreated light.

Word of God, our flesh that fashioned,
With the fire of life impassioned,
Striving still to truth unknown,
Soaring, dying round Thy throne.

Through the way where hope is guiding,
Hark, what peaceful music rings;
Where the flock, in Thee confiding,
Drink of joy from deathless springs.

Theirs is beauty’s fairest pleasure;
Theirs is wisdom’s holiest treasure.
Thou dost ever lead Thine own
In the love of joys unknown.

~ lyrics by Martin Janus (1661), music by Jo­hann Schop (1590-1664); ar­r. by J. S. Bach (1723)



Saturday, March 18, 2017

Fully Human in Inhumane Times

I fell off writing here because I reached a point where I could no longer live on news reports alone.  My soul needed a different way to be in these dangerous times.  Plus, anyone who is likely to read this blog has probably already seen all the reports and opinion articles I have, so there's no point in simply passing them along again here.

What I realized I need now is art.  Poetry, music, beauty.  Not as a distraction from the reality around us, but as a way to be in it that isn't soul-destroying.  A way to be fully human in inhumane times.

A couple of days after coming to that realization, a book jumped off the shelf of a bookstore into my hands:  Poetry of Witness:  The Tradition in English, 1500–2001, edited by Carolyn Forché and Duncan Wu.  It's a heavy tome, with some 600 pages of poetry.  And a brilliant introduction by Wu and Forché.

Duncan Wu:
For poetry of witness, as Forché defines it, … has always been the means by which the imagination has articulated its response to war, imprisonment, oppression, and enslavement.  … [O]f all genres, poetry is best suited to the task.  We refer to its ability to accommodate the sublime, the ineffable, that of which we cannot speak. (p. 3)
And Carolyn Forché:
In the poetry of witness, the poem makes present to us the experience of the other, the poem is the experience, rather than a symbolic representation.  When we read the poem as witness, we are marked by it and become ourselves witnesses to what it has made present before us.  Language incises the page, wounding it with testimonial presence, and the reader is marked by encounter with that presence.  Witness begets witness.  The text we read becomes a living archive.  (p. 26)

Instead of filling this blog with news articles and op-ed pieces and pictures of horror, I'm going to fill it with poetry, and photos and music that might not relate directly to the poems but are a moment of beauty in themselves.

To begin:


Oh sacred hunger of ambitious minds
And important desire of men to reign,
Whom neither dread of God, that devils binds,
Nor laws of men, that commonweals contain,
Nor bands of nature, that wild beasts restrain,
Can keep from outrage and from doing wrong,
Where they may hope a kingdom to obtain.
No faith so firm, no trust can be so strong,
No love so lasting then, that may endure long.

~ Sir Edmund Spenser, excerpt from The Faerie Queene  (c. 1596)